So lately I haven't been as much on the Urian forums, and this is because there have been some things going on with my life. I have always tried to prioritize my faith over everything else, and this has led to some consequences with those I had before.
My biological family, and its friends, had always been atheist. When I first began researching mysticism, back in around 2018-2019, they tried all they could to discourage me. They kept telling me that I was spending too much time on "nonsense", that I had to return to my previous lifestyle (which, in fact, was filled with conflict and despair). Of course, I did not listen to what they had to say. For all I was concerned, I was trying to find a way to escape the harshness I had experienced from my parents, friends, mentors, etc. before. Ever since I was a young child, everyone around me had always tried to push me into their system. I had always been the odd one out, and for that I was always the subject of "you could do better" conversations. This was funny, because I had always been at the top of my class as a child, and also received many awards, and in my youth, I was independent, being able to do and learn things on my own, as well as virtuous, as I did not participate in many questionable activities (most teen boys/young men in my city had at least one connection to crime). I guess when they told me to "improve", they meant "assimilate".
When those around me heard about Urianism, almost all of them thought that I had joined a "death cult" I will admit, I have explained its principles with slightly different wording in order for the message to be clearer, but I do not think they would have acted any different even if I had directly quoted from the Holy Book, as (frankly) a lot of components of Urianism seem occult-like to someone without a full understanding of what was going on, such as the 15 Steps, or the priestly rituals.
I guess the "tipping point" was when I had refused the coronavirus vaccine. I did not (literally) know a single person in my vicinity that did not receive it, and when they learned that I did not, they all turned their attention on me. Now that the "panic" is over, in reflection, I do not think the vaccine was the FINAL "Mark of the Beast", as there is now little to no pressure to receive it, but rather as a test from God to see who would be wary of the Mark and who would be brave enough to refute it, so in effect, those who received the vaccine are still damned. Anyways, when I refused to receive the vaccine, they all began to think of me as "insane" and a "conspiracy theorist". They kept convincing me to receive it, and every time I refused.
After this, they began to talk to me less and less. What had once been my trusted friends now turned their backs on me. I was denied almost all career opportunities. At every point along the way, they kept telling me to turn away, to turn back to what I had once known. Every time, I denied their offer. At one point, it was no longer a suggestion, but an order. Those around me began to cut me off from their circles, trying to get me to turn back. One has already referred me to a psychiatric ward, but luckily, I was able to get out as the doctors could see I was clearly not insane. I suspect that in 1-2 years a lot of them would testify for my insanity.
As of right now, I have disconnected myself from all my former friends and reduced my contact with my biological family to as little as possible. I know that the Ahyeh discourages this, but I feel as if I am left with no choice, as the only thing they are trying to do is to turn me away from the faith.
In other words, I have been dealing with a lot of issues in my life recently, and thus most of the time I have been too stressed to post/comment on the forums. I am planning to move away and (possibly) buy a new house somewhere far away, preferably in a place with few people, and earn enough income to sustain myself (I have thought about programming). I do believe that a disaster will come within the next 20 years (at the maximum), with all the issues and instability in the world. When the time comes, I will prepare.
To be brief...this thread makes me feel like certain things are coming to a head and about to break. I do not know how to proceed but will pray madly about it.
Was researching what denominations are anti-vax, and we are almost all there is... Some Mormons, a few isolated sects of Christianity, a Christ Church group in Idaho (The American Redoubt). This affirms to me, that we were utterly right in our decision. WE ARE NOT AGAINST VACCINES - We are against mRNA Vaccines created by an ultra-secular/atheistic medical establishment, for lack of trust in their motives and agenda.
There are a whole lot of people who, on a deep personal level, feel that there is something spiritually wrong with the vaccines, the mandates (past and present), the entire Covid/WHO/UN/WEF totalitarian agenda, but they are not backed up by their religious leaders -- who have, by and large, sold out to the World, for want of its money and its approval. There are a few religious groups, mostly outside the mainstream, who have taken a stand, but they are suppressed and repressed. All of this tells me, on a gut/intuitive level, our position is right... if the herd goes along something, so mindlessly, so completely, we should always question it.
I might add that we are not a death cult, we are an eternal life cult.
I too have been alienated from my family, by my path... I have Rae and a cat, that's it. My sister just up and stopped talking to me, and she was the last one that was still in my life even a little (by email).
We will welcome you here, of course, though it's illegal to enter the U.S. without the vexation. It would seem employment and independence is your primary hope, and that can only come through educating yourself. The Light-side of the internet is educational opportunity, fortunately.
Raethan has been training in coding/programming, as has Victoria in Florida. If you could get into the U.S. you always have a home here, and we can work on getting you a job somewhere... it is a very red county (conservative), and the mandates have decreased (as you say), but they are still pushing it here, and the CDC has made a ruling that mandates it for all school kids. Most medical type jobs require it.
All of us need to work at either learning languages (translators make good money), or coding/programming/IT, or learning survival/bushcraft in order to live off grid like the mountain men of old I guess.
You're in a VERY WOKE country, with a quasi-dictator in charge, but you are not really alone, as there are many people in Canada trying to push back against The WEF Agenda. Is there anyway to network (blogs, chat rooms, protests) with those who are pushing back?
Your issue is of course, or people's issue with you, is mainly the religious aspect... I think it would be the same if you were a devout Christian, but that you would have a support network (there are devout Christians in the most atheistic countries). Did your family not migrate from China, in search of freedom? Freedom of religion is something almost utterly denied to people in China, as the government must approve of the sermons of the few legal churches... many Christians and Muslims, not to mention Falon Gong, find themselves in prison being tortured in some of the most horrific ways imaginable.
Anyway, the only hope is being pro-active, or, for the time being, joining a devoutly Christian (conservative) real life congregation, and just going along. Might be hard to find an anti-vax type congregation, but there are some (at least according to Rebel News).
Understand, brother, our path is old world, our vision of priesthood is, admittedly, more rooted in the Sumerian/Mesopotamian idea of it -- the priesthoods of An, Anu, EL, Yahweh, Uranus... they were priesthoods that practiced theurgy (divine magick).
Moreover, we have embraced the very Christian (Charismatic/Pentecostal) idea of The Gifts of the Holy Spirit -- nearly all our ideas on healing, spiritual warfare, and prophecy come from the Charismatic Christian approach.
We can not apologize for being Old School, in our priestly vocations, but you must also realize that only Violet Order is required to be practicing Magi/Theurgists and Paranormalists/Metaphysicists/Mystics... The training gives every priest/priestess a basic foundation, but mystical practices are mainly only the focus of the Violet Order.
Still, prayer is no different than spellcasting, the invocation of a divine power to effect persons, places, or situations. Deep spiritual prayer and divine ecstasies are very Christian, very Sufi, very Zoroastrian... Orthodox Jews study Kabbalah, many Jews in general study Kabbalah for that matter, which is a magical/mystical school of thought. In short, we differentiate between what is rooted in God/The Divine and what is not.
You are loved and you are respected for towing the line against all adversity. You've been with us over a year now, and have held the line against all challengers. It could be suggested that you are a Reverend in your own right, because you have preached the teachings and tried to win souls. Go inward for awhile, study, meditate, devote yourself privately, and keep your religious views to yourself, until you are in a safe place and can gain your own personal living space (apartment or home). Train at the coding, become a game maker even or an ap designer. Build yourself a road out of your situation.
You have family in spirit, and the spirit life will endure long after this material/meat life has ended.
God Bless You Brother